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10,20,30 ...

When we were not even ten years old, we looked at the world with amazement. Grown up people looked weird and whatever they did seemed strange for us. We had our joyful and playful world. There was a small room behind my grandpa's room. It was full of old books, newspapers, and magazines. For them it's just trash, for me it's hidden treasure, and I spent the whole day there reading.

When we were teens, we were confused with all the changing. Our body changed, they way we think changed, the world seemed so confusing. We tried to deal with that, but failed a lot. We weren't a kid anymore, but not yet an adult. So many times I argued with my mom. She didn't like my friends, she didn't like the boy who had crush on me. I just couldn't understand why only school matters for her.

When we were twenties, we stood up bravely. We wanted to conquer the world. Everything looked perfect, or would be perfect. People come and go, friends, boyfriends, co-workers. But did it bother us? We were young. We thought we had limitless energy and endless future. I was busy with college, lots of activities, and later on trying to have a good career. Everything must work as I wanted.

Meanwhile, not everything came as we wanted. Career wasn't as promising as before, love life wasn't any better. We tried to put all pieces together, but we didn't always find the answer.

Then we're becoming thirties. We realized that life comes at us fast. Really fast. We saw our kids, nephews and nieces growing. Babies are born. We realized we couldn't stop time. All we can do is enjoying each moment, trying to make best out of it. All the perfectness that we dreamed on in our twenties doesn't always matter anymore. We realized that life is not about always getting what we want, but how to compromise between our ideal dream and reality. There are some much stuffs that we still want to grasp, there are a lot of things that falling apart. But also ... there are a lot of unexpected blessing that we got along the way.

Someday we will be forties, fifties, until our last breath ... and maybe, I will continue this posting to see how I see the world at that time ;)

Comments

Really a nice thought, Mita. Like it a lot ;-) Absolutely true. Compromising between our perfect paintings, and what we really have in life. Knowing somehow... it doesn't really matter anymore. Cause what's really important is life itself. And yes, there are also and unexpected gifts and blessings come along the way, given by our Father in heaven ;-)
Anonymous said…
Hai Mita, impian elu main main ke dunia luar kesampaian kan ? Thanks to God.
Anonymous said…
Shirley ngasih tahu ada postingan baru di blog elo. dia bilang elo bisa jadi hirata kedua!
Very good Post!
*tadinya mau muji biar elo makin support ide kolaborasi buat PSP or Wii, tapi ternyata tanpa niatan itu pun postingan elo in top!*
Anonymous said…
u're my favorite blogger!
Anonymous said…
setuju...
tulisan yang bagus...
Anonymous said…
Semoga koleksi buku gue juga kelak mengilhami cucu or cicit anaknya cicit, untuk .......kayak elu.

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