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Beberapa minggu belakangan aku mulai terbiasa dengan kehadirannya.Berkirim sms selepas kesibukan sehari2 sampai ketiduran lambat laun jadi kebiasaanku, kadang2 cerita tentang kesibukan sehari2, kerjaan, atau sekedar cerita sepotong2 tentang acara televisi ... aku mulai nyaman dengan kehadirannya, dengan obrolan2nya.

I enjoy he's being with me ... tapi aku gak pernah suka menjadi terbiasa dengan kehadiran seseorang ... karena sudah jadi sifat jelekku, ketika aku terbiasa dengan kehadiran seseorang, aku merasa kehilangan ketika ia tidak ada. Ada yang  hilang ketika kebiasaan itu tidak lagi dijalankan, ketika sapaan2 itu hilang, ketika tidak ada lagi pertemuan2 ...

Ah, what will happen, just happen lah ... Walaupun sebenarnya takut, jangan, jangan lagi, cukup peristiwa waktu itu saja ... Aku takut banget ...

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