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Gelisah tak berujung ...

[after some coffee ... my best friend drove me home ... ]

# Elo tuh sekalinya suka sama orang selaluuu aja kebawa perasaan ya ...
Padahal maksudnya dia bisa aja gak kayak gitu ...
* [sigh] ...

# Padahal kalo gak suka kalo orang, jadi ekstreeem banget ...
* [sigh again] ...

# Padahal kan harusnya boleh gitu ...
* [dalam hati] Iya ...

[ Thanks ya ... buat nggak bosen2 dengerin ceritaku yang tak berujung ... 8 tahun jadi sahabat, 8 tahun ndengerin curhatku ... hhhhhhhh]

I wish that I could find someone I love who understand me as you do ...
I wish that I belong to 'that someone' ...

Gelisahku kembali tak berujung ...
Tak berujung ... entah sampai kapan dan di mana ...

- tenang ajah, aku baek2 aja ;), seperti biasa ... ini cuma teriak2 gak jelas -



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