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Today I wear red.

Huehehehe ... batal ... kesian deh si Mita :p
Gitu tuh kalo jadi orang suka ribet sendiri ... hahaha ...


Today my mood is to wear red dress. I have prepared a dark blue blouse to wear when I thought it was too calm, and today I want to look cheerful, great, and eye-catching. So I choose this simple v-neck red blouse. Simple but eye catching.

My high ego never let me to look poor in front of someone who ever been in my heart, at most in front of someone who broke my heart once. I always want to look great in front of him. You think it's silly ?I think it's a kind of survival mechanism. When there's nothing else I can do, this is the only thing I can do to defense myself, making myself looks great. Silly, but I want him to think, "Damned, she looks damned great!".

This is the only thing I can do to give myself some guts to face whatever things that might happen.

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