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Ketak ketik ketuk sebelum pulang ...

Hari ini hari yang melelahkan. Memang sih, 2 tugasku - BCA dan BII selesai - tapi bukan berarti bisa nyantai. BCA masih belum perfect, dan habis ini aku masih harus ngelanjutin porting.

Keinginan pengen cepet2 pulang ke kost, akhirnya kalah dengan rasa sepi. Rasa sepi yang mendadak dateng gini nih musuh utamaku :(! Aku bisa kalah perang gara2 rasa sepi, kepikiran yang enggak-enggak ... dan yang paling aku benci kalo tiba2 sepi menyergap :)) seperti ini adalah bayangan dari sosok itu ... pasti berkelebat.
Padahal tadi pagi rasanya aku capek banget gara2 tadi malem nyetir motor di Jakarta this is my first time riding bike here ... Kapok deh aku naik motor lagi di sini :) masih mending naik turun bis.

Anyway, tadi siang sahabatku lagi bete. Di YM manyuuun aja, gara2 harus mundur dari pdkt nya ke cewek yang ia sukai. Waktu aku nge-refer apa yang pernah aku alami, dia malah bilang dia milih di posisi aku. Karena aku sempat ngerasain 'bahagia' sesaat bareng seseorang. Aku bilang, toh hasilnya sama aja, bukan sebuah happy ending. Aku toh gak pernah tau apa yang sebenarnya terjadi waktu itu. Believe man, you don't want to feel it :) ... but still he didn't agree with me, ya sutra ...

So, buat sahabatku, ini saranku: You're a great man! Don't worry, you'll finally find someone who belongs to you. Kamu harus percaya sama aku, udah berapa taun kita sahabatan ... hampir 8 taun mungkin :) ... Cewek yang buang kesempatan dia buat kenal kamu lebih jauh, she made a mistake! Kamu tuh nggak jelek2 amat - agak cakep mungkin ... hehehe ... nggak rela amat sih mujinya - , kamu tuh pinter! Mana ada cap gajah yang bego ;) ... You have a good sense of humor :)) ... nggak kayak aku yang gak bisa bikin cair suasana :) Kamu tuh cerewet, semua orang butuh kamu buat jadi temen mereka ... nggak ada orang yang nggak merasa nyaman bareng kamu. Kamu tergolong 'pria mapan' hahaha ... cewek *matre* mana yang gak mau ;0? Hehehe .. kidding. Kamu taat beribadah ... gak suka bolos ke gereja kayak aku ;) -eh, btw kemaren minggu akhirnya satu keluarga bolos semua :)) - Dengan segala kelebihan yang kamu punya, kamu pasti bakal nemuin 'si dia'. Emang sih, banyak yang bilang kamu terlalu mengagungkan love at the first sight, etc, etc. Tapi dengan segala kelebihan kamu, love will find the way ...

Hehe, I already feel better after writing this blog. Mungkin sepi itu tetep ada, dan sosok itu tetep aja berkelebat di benakku (I always wonder when can I finally forget), tapi aku udah merasa lebih baik. I am ready to go home now, bye ...


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