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Hasil blogwalking :p

Barusan aku baca blog walking, di blog itu tulisannya tentang patah hati. Intinya sih, kalo hubungan udah gak berprospek buat diterusin, mo nangisnya 3 hari ato 3 tahun resultnya tetep sama aja ... Huah, kesepet abis neh :p ...

Hehehe ... I am the second type, bisa abis setaun buat aku ngelupain seseorang ... buat ngedate lagi sama yang laen ... hehehe ... serem amat yak :p ... Suka ato gak suka, that's me. Yes, experience makes me tougher ... tapi kalo inget2 lagi ... sakiiit minta ampun ... :) Mungkin sekarang pun kalo denger tentang Bapak itu aku masih dheg juga. Jadi mending jauh2 deh, gak ketemu, gak denger berita :p

Nah, sayangnya kayaknya aku bukan tipe orang yang bisa deket ama orang dalam waktu yang lama ya :( entah kenapa ... hiks ... Padahal sobat2ku cukup awet loh, tapi kalo masalah yang satu ini ... bener2 kayak gak punya kompetensi ...

Dan yang bikin aku bete, kalau aku suka dan sayang ama orang, aku susah banget buat ngelupain dia. Aku maunya tetep sahabatan ... tapi kan susah, bayangin deh cowok ketika dan sesudah pdkt, bedanya kayak bumi dan langit. Ampun deh, really hard to understand what he wants, padahal dia sendiri yang bilang maunya tetep jalan bareng, tetep ngobrol bareng. Tapi di sms aja reply nya sesuka2 dia ... cukup bales 1 ato 2 kali, kalo perlu gak dibales.

Hiks ... jadi sedih, kok jadi gini yah. Padahal karena kita berangkat dari teman, menurutku kita harusnya bisa melakukannya dengan lebih baik, kalo emang kita cuma gagal dalam 'relationship' atau pdkt, atau whatever you named it, jangan sampe ngorbanin pertemanan. Duh, suka sedih kalo nginget itu ... sampe2 dibilang rapuh ama sobatku ... Anyway, mungkin aku emang harus terbiasa sendirian kali ya ... entah sampai kapan ... Yah, begitulah yang aku rasain sekarang ... people come n go in my life ... mungkin emang harus begitu ...

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